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Lost In Words/ Vitaly bogdanov

Boys are boys
Girls are complicated
and you are special
But everyone is special
And therefore
you are special, because you are the only normal person

But words like "Special" and "Complicated", are just words. No more then a couple of words, made-up by us. So...
Who am I?
Who are we?
Who am I, to them?
What are they, to us?

What do I want?
What do I need?

I  need to complicate myself, for you to untwine my enigma. While I want for it all to be simple.
I need to stay far, tho I want to be close
I need you to be me, but I want you to be different
I need to be special, but want to see myself as normal
I am a stalker, that wants to be noticed
I am God himself, tho shy in powers
I am a monk of material value

I am many more, deleted, unthought and regrettable lines.
I'm a shadow of myself
Twisting and turning, around all surfaces, shapes and sizes.
And will misplace, split, and stretch myself
With any change of the light.
I feel the urge to return to my origins, and sleep under a sky of stars.
I don't want to be alone; I am afraid.
I am a coward
I am a boy, a complicated one, in fact!
I have father issues,
Mother issues
I have more issues then all Spider-man comics, combined
I'm a theoretical fact
and all, by no more, than a hypothesis
I am a paradox
 just like you
Like we all are

We all want love, but need pain

But here we are
The same, but different
With 'needs' and 'wants'
To be addressed
The rhymes still flow
Yet cold and bitter
With fingers crossed
To pass the test

I despise, and love myself at the same time
And so do you
All we truly thrive to is each other
To find in each other the parts that we lack
To form a better self

And every day you breathe, you are a part of a bigger thing,
Be it with a friend or a foe, you still shape the world around you, to some extend. And you get lost in words; just like now!
And it's all because you forget that those are just words, and could never describe who you are, or what... These are just words, and words... they are never the answer.